The Trouble with Longing

***Disclaimer: I got this idea from Pinterest, an exercise where you write a 20 word sentence, then a 19 word sentence, and so on, ending the story with one word.***

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Are dreams tied to subconscious wants, and is this why when life is lacking you dream a lot and vividly? 

When you find yourself fulfilled and on a self-actualizing path, do you dream less often or even at all?

I find when my life is hectic, when it is full of obligations, I find myself dreaming more. 

In other words, I find myself searching, with an indescribable longing to do and to be more. 

I’ll lose sleep on past regrets, future troubles, things I can’t fix now, can't fix ever. 

As if restless worrying will get me closer to what I want, what I need. 

When I’m lucky enough for sleep to come, I don’t recall having any dreams.

When the sunlight pours through my window, I find myself rested, at peace. 

At peace with my place on earth, beside the person I love. 

Maybe some dreams are subconscious wants, wants I can never have. 

But I can’t say that my life is lacking now. 

In ways I am fulfilled, and I am self-actualized. 

In others, I know I’ll always have dreams. 

The trick is to know the difference. 

The difference between fantasy, and reality. 

Of past desires, future hopes. 

Old self, and new. 

I’ll always dream. 

Embrace now. 

Live.  

THE END