06/05/2024: Getting Out There

It’s been a great week since I’ve written last. I’m back to my usual routine and I’m feeling better. 

I’m so excited to say that I finally got out there and I went to a community writing event. I met so many nice people and I got so much done in the seven hour window that I was there. I’m happy that I found something of my own, something I didn’t know how to find in my old home. I know it was good for me and Caleb to take the leap and leave. It’s starting to pay off I think. He’s got his regular art class and is meeting people there, and I’m starting to make writing events a regular thing.

I’m excited to go to more events, and since the first one I’ve gotten a membership and RSVP’d to a handful of new events, including the next lockin in July. I’m eager to share my experiences with everyone, and a part of me hopes that others will start to take me seriously as I get out in the world and share my writing. 

I know that doesn’t matter, but I think it’s human nature to want to share things with others that we’re passionate about. I have so much joy and excitement inside of me and not many people to talk to about it. But hopefully that is going to change soon. 

I made a lot of progress on my blog yesterday, and it gave me some hope that I’ll be launching my first and very own site in the near future. I think after all the worry, all the planning and overthinking that I’m finally ready to get this thing going. I’ve waited too long already, but I have to remind myself that I’m just glad to be working towards these goals. 

People asked me what I write, and what got me into writing, and all I could say with certainty was that I’m just happy to be doing it, to be pursuing it full time for the first time in my life. And I also know it’s time to support my love with this dream, so that he can finally pursue his with everything he has. I hope something good is on the horizon for us. 

We’ve worked hard to realize our dreams and we fight every day to preserve them. But it’s the most rewarding battle I’ve fought in my life, and the only one worth fighting in this crazy world we live in, at least to me. I want the way I live to inspire others to fight for the same. I don’t mean to control or change them; I just want others to find joy and fulfillment in whatever it is that they do. It’s the only thing that keeps us going at the end of the day, at least for me. Soon enough people will know how I feel when I finally share myself with the world.