06/27/2024: Road Trips and Family Time

Time moves equally fast and slow here. Before we know it we’ll be on the road again and this week will be over. It’s been good so far, just busy. But everyday has been full of good times and times with everyone. 

I was worried it would be really hard to fit everything in, to make time for everyone, but I think it turned out fine. I’m glad to finally have a tranquil morning where I can put my thoughts to paper. 

When I find myself surrounded with urgency and noise, stress and worry, I find myself thinking how I don’t understand how some people never experience silence, never have a positive thought all day long. From experience, I know that negative thinking is draining, and it weighs me down after a while. But for some it’s the order of the day until their heads hit the pillow. 

The world and the fate of it isn’t so dire, at least not every waking moment of it. There are good things in the bad, cherished memories in even the busiest or most trying days. The one thing that weighs on me is how everyone is so divided, determined to die on whatever hill they’re fighting for their life on at the time I’m here. And I always end up caught in the middle of everything and everyone. 

If people would talk more than they assumed, maybe they would get somewhere. Maybe they would be able to sift through the unspoken apologies and misunderstandings to at least find some semblance of peace within themselves. No bad words and angry looks are going to solve any of these problems, and these feuds are petty and unimportant in the grand scheme of things. 

There are events on the horizon that will soon take the forefront, and I want to focus on those things. I fear not being here when those things take place, that I’ll be too far away when I’m needed. But I don’t know what I can do until these events come to pass, so I’ll have to wait and see. No one is getting any younger, and as I get older that does weigh heavier on my mind. That’s why it’s so important to me to make the most of the time I have with everyone when I have the chance, because I have no idea when those times will be my last. 

I think we needed this trip. We were travel ready, excited to hit the road together and to spend time at home. I hope to have a great rest of the week with everyone and I look forward to seeing our dearest friend soon.