12/19/2024: 2024 Nonsense

I want to start off the new year with no old 2024 nonsense. I don’t want to carry any still-existing bad habits or thoughts with me whatsoever; I want to unlock the next level as I start a new life chapter. Even if this simply means I take down my fall decorations finally before driving home for Christmas, then damn it I’m going to tie up all my loose ends this year before that clock strikes midnight on New Years Eve.

It is valid that I’ve been too busy to dive into the Christmas season like I usually do, and on some levels that has saddened me even if it’s out of my control. On a more serious note, I know that I’ve let certain things go that I want to put more time and care into once I can get organized again. On one hand I’ve accomplished a lot this year, but on the other I know with utmost certainty that I can push harder and go so much further. That’s what I’ve been thinking about a lot lately, just about what went well this year and what’s still in a period of growth that needs to be prioritized and nurtured. 

I can’t put into words how much better I feel physically and mentally, and I just want to tell my past self that her time finally came where things got easier and better. My outlook is a lot less dreary - even if it's not any less sassy - than it used to be, and now it doesn’t take the simple change in the wind to ruin my whole view of the world and my place in it. 

Physically I’ve pushed myself to accomplish something I never saw myself doing, much less enjoying it as much as I do. For the first time ever, running is something I’m developing a passion for, and I pushed the boundaries of my comfort zone and grew so much in that area. I’m ready to set the bar higher and to continue to improve, while re-incorporating all the other forms of exercise that I have missed for a while now. Meditation and yoga are an integral part of my growth and wellbeing as well, and I lost my way with these things as new hobbies took the forefront and I grew in other areas. But I think some of that was necessary. 

I’ve got lots of new things to weave into my routine and my life and that’s an exciting notion. So I’ll get up and I’ll exercise. I’ll write, write, and write some more as I attempt to start a first draft of my first novel. I’ll make more time for reading, and I’ll work on my personal relationships, including devoting more quality time to the love of my life and my best friend, the guy I do all my caring and growing for.