11/02/2024: Pine, CO Day 2

I’m tired today but glad that there’s nothing pressing to do. We enjoyed a lazy morning before going to a local coffee shop for a while. It was nice but coming back to the silence of the cabin afterward was a great way to start our lazy afternoon.

Last month was full and it was tiring, and I realized it was mostly my doing. I always get excited this time of year and try to cram too many things in at once, and I don’t really give myself the breaks I need. I know that’s why I’m so worn out even this weekend, so I’m doing my best to give my body the rest it’s asking me for. 

I knew going into this weekend that our getaway trip would be too short; it always is. But I’m really feeling it today, that constant pull back to real life and all that has to be addressed there. I don’t want to think about it right now but even still the thought is always in the back of my mind. 

I’ll do my best to take it all in today and make the most of our time, as well as the nature and the loud silence. After coming back from the coffee shop, I realized how loud we are as human beings just going through our day. There is always something to be said or something to be done, and there is never a moment of pure nothingness. I don’t notice it until I come out to a place like this, where my human nature is telling me I have to fill the void with noise, with something, when the quiet seems unnatural. But once I settle in and get accustomed to it again, there’s nothing I love more than letting the ringing fill my ears and allowing the calm in. 

So much can be said and heard in these moments of pure quiet, and it’s always a privilege to experience when we need a break from the regular ways of the world. I know I’ll go back home feeling a little better, but I’ll also be counting down the days until I can disappear again. 

If I could have this every day I would be satisfied. And one day I hope that this is the norm. Creative minds do well in an environment where they can escape into themselves and be inspired to make things. This kind of place is ideal for my love and me, because we always learn something new and we don’t have to fill every moment with something to be comfortable and happy together. I know he’s in his element out here, and I hope that it helped to restore his mental wellbeing, even just a little bit. It always helps me.