01/01/2024: Getaway Day 5 (Wilfredo)

For once I’m not only sad to leave, I’m scared. I’m starting to say goodbye to everything I love at a more rapid rate as we get closer to our departure. This will be my final farewell to one of my favorite places I’ve come to love so much. And I know when I make it back home today that the obligations are going to ramp up. I’m not ready for the fatigue that will likely come as we make our last preparations before we get on the plane. 

I’m trying to be optimistic. I know it will all be okay soon. I just know it’ll be a while before I’m able to get away again, and I’m just hoping this last escape to nature for a while will be enough to get me through moving, settling in, and finding a new place I can escape to recharge. 

I can say that this getaway weekend has been pretty perfect. We got the chance to unwind, to look back on the events of the year and to celebrate what is to come. We had a lot of fun in between together, and enjoyed each other’s company as we always do. I hope this birthday and New Year’s retreat did my love some good, and that he’s ready for the upcoming challenges that we’re about to face. If I don’t have him through this I know I can’t do it. If I don’t have him, period, I’m lost. 

He is the reason I do anything of substance. When he didn’t have to be, he was my friend, the one who picked me up and made me laugh. When we were young and off living our lives, he stuck by me despite the distance and selflessly chose to be with me no matter where that was. When I was at my worst, he was patient, and he didn’t leave me. After those first two rocky years, we managed to improve, for the sake of each other. Now it’s been ten years, and he’s letting me recognize my dream, while he works hard and continues to provide for us. For all that he did for me, and still does, I want to be someone he can rely on, a constant in our ever changing day to day lives. 

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to repay him for everything he has done, but I can certainly remind him how much he means to me each day with my words and actions. I can make sure I’m not wasting a single moment or opportunity that he’s given me as I chase down this dream, in hopes that I can set him up to work toward the future I know he dreams of, the future I know that he deserves after all that he has done for others. 

I have no doubt that we will both be living our dreams, one day. I will strive to make that dream a reality as soon as I can. And so I look forward to the new year, and all it has to offer. I’m eager to see how much more I’ve grown and accomplished by this time next year.