07/03/2023: Getaway Day 4 (Marie)

I’m trying to ground myself again this morning as we spend our last day here together. The feeling I’m trying to avoid feeling is threatening to creep up, and sadness I know I’ll feel tomorrow as we say goodbye to nature and go back to our lives is looming. If I could stay out here forever I would be perfectly content living out my days here in my little escape away from the rest of the bustling world. 

This place takes the complications and complexities out of everything that is trivial in the normal day to day. Time passes leisurely, chores feel like labors of love, and everything in between nurtures and rejuvenates the soul in some way. The simple things are put in the forefront, and I am reminded that it’s these little things that, when combined, make up the things that make my life worth so much, what make it mine and mine alone. 

I love coming out here to rediscover the things that mean the most to me, and the things I love most about my favorite person in the world. So far the transition to living more simply has been going very well. We are doing better at living within our means, and we have freed time previously spent laboring over more tedious things, for more things that make us whole.

I can’t imagine living any other way now. This was the way I was meant to live. While the rest of the world wants to look away and be distracted by what the world is feeding them, I want to continue striving to rid my world of distractions and illusions, to take back my life and not waste a moment of it. 

It’s hard not to fall back into those old habits because this is the way of the world as a whole. It’s hard to find like minded people, like hearted people, and it can be lonely. But since the last time I acknowledged that this path is a lonely existence, I have had a change of heart and mind on the matter. I used to be sad by this fact, but between then and now I have had the chance to spend more quality time with myself, and as a result I have found more comfort in my own mind, the solitude I have created to grow and to love myself. 

Since I’ve given myself this sacred time, things feel as if they are as they should be with my relationships and things don’t feel forced, and I don’t need others to feel okay. I have found more acceptance for myself and more patience for my friends and family. I can accept them for who they are and not hold them back from this, and by creating healthy boundaries for myself, I can finally find the balance between letting me be myself but also making room for them in my life. 

I’ve learned a lot on this journey, about a lot of things that in the past I never dreamed I would contemplate. I’m enjoying the adventure of opening up and freeing my mind, finding peace and joy in my world, and putting my heart and soul into things and people who align with who I am and who I want to be.