12/30/2023: Getaway Day 3 (Wilfredo)
This trip we’re celebrating another birthday, this time my love’s. I’m glad he’s feeling better today and that we’ve gotten to celebrate his special day uninterrupted by the rest of the world. He seems to be in good spirits, but simultaneously in a quiet and contemplative state. I know sometimes he doesn’t know what’s wrong when something is wrong, but I still wish I could take away whatever that feeling is inside of him.
He says in jest that I blame myself for the weather, and I guess I also think there is some fault with or in me to be found when he isn’t having the best day. I know it isn’t the case, but anything I can do to make him feel better is a price I would be willing to pay if I could only figure out the cost. He thinks his birthday has always been cursed, whether it be due to a natural disaster or sickness, so I’ve been trying hard to make his 29th the exception. I know I must be overthinking or allowing myself to stress unnecessarily, but it’s hard not to when I just want my love to be genuinely happy.
The solitude and time of reflection is always refreshing out here, especially as we prepare for our next set of challenges and new adventures. If my love is anything like me, then I’m sure he’s just having a hard time setting these stresses, worries and obligations aside knowing they’re coming up on both of us fast. It’s really hard not to let those worries and thoughts in, but I try to remind myself why I’m out here, and when I take a breath and realize where I am, the construct of time easily fades away again and I let the time pass as quickly or slowly as it wants without a care in the world.
Knowing we only have a day and a half left of unbridled peace, I’m determined to make the rest of our final escape here, and to ring in the new year with a newfound sense of determination and optimism as my love and I continue to grow and learn together. I’m proud of us, and I know that next year will bring many new things and opportunities our way that I only hope will enrich our lives, and our love and our bond, even more.
We have a lot we want to do in the coming years, and I know we’re both capable and eager to tackle whatever obstacles come our way on our journey. It’s only making us stronger and wiser. I look forward to celebrating tonight with my love and letting everything else fall away for the time being. I hope he has a great birthday and knows how much he is loved.