02/28/2024: Routine

I can’t seem to get my weekly inspiration days down. I find myself choosing to stay home or getting my coffee to go and in the process I have neglected my personal reflections. Things still feel new, and it’s hard to find a new place to go when there are so many more people everywhere. It’s harder to focus, and because of the steady flow of people I feel like I shouldn’t overstay my welcome. I know I just have to get used to this new normal, lest I give up on the one day a week that was always my favorite. 

I grew to love my Wednesday ritual back home and my regular place with my regular people. I hope I find a place soon that reminds me of that. I know it won’t be the same, but surely there is an equivalent out there.

Things have been getting better overall here. We have seen friends and gone on a couple weekend day trips, which were nice. I’m happy that we aren’t alone out here. It makes it easier. I know I probably need to go out to more social events and meet people, but I’m slow to do it. Until it feels completely like home here I probably won’t feel like doing that. 

But as we settle in, at least my love and I have been enjoying ourselves, exploring our surrounding areas and having quality time together at home. I miss my family and friends a lot right now, but I know I have to keep doing my own thing. 

I have finally gotten back into some semblance of a fitness routine, and for that I am so grateful. I’ve missed that from my life very much. I’m finally settling back into my writing regimens as well. I just need to make more time for reading in the midst of that. I suppose I can’t complain, but I’m worried about my love as he has to commit to more work for the next twelve weeks. I hate that for him, and it makes me feel guilty that I can't support him and his dreams yet.

The fact that he’s stuck for two years is nerve wracking, so I hope he finds a way to cope and push through and that we can proudly call this new place home soon. This is our time to learn and grow together in a new and exciting place. I know it has a lot of potential, and I can’t wait to get our finances back in order so we can start getting out there and seeing new places and trying new things.