03/27/2024: Safe Travels and Good Times

I finally feel accomplished after last week. Ten weeks on my renewed fitness journey and only thirty one days to show for it, but I’m starting to feel good again regardless. I had a good balance of activity and downtime and fun time, and had a great visit with our friends. 

My mood still fluctuates quite often as I get accustomed to all this new. But I think I’m starting to find a semblance of the old routine in the new and I’m getting used to things. I’m trying to make myself fake it until I make it at least, forcing myself to get out on my regular day, to enjoy some good coffee and atmosphere and to keep in touch with myself and my mental state. 

I think that’s part of my problem lately. During the chaos of uprooting and moving, I stopped checking in and I got tired and overwhelmed. It felt like I was starting over in all aspects of life that were important to me, and it was discouraging and really frustrating. But I’m slowly coming back to myself, I can feel it. There’s a lot of good to come in the near future, and I’m trying my best to prepare for it. 

I fly out in a few days to see my friend get married. I’m excited to see her and her family and to celebrate. From there I get to travel home to see my family for a couple days and enjoy time back home. I think I need this trip. I would have been home long before now if I was still closer, and I think that realization has pulled on my heart a little. 

Of course I don’t know what to expect when I get there. Someone will be waiting to talk to me, to make amends and I don’t know what I feel or what I need to say yet. But I guess all I can do is wait and see. In addition to this home trip, I get to go spend a day in our old stomping grounds, in our old city that I had no idea that I would miss this much, let alone at all. It ended up being our magnum opus, the place that we truly made home, a place where we were content and were near. I’ll always long for that place, and my old haunts. And I can't wait to pay a visit, to do the things I want and to see our best friend there in Dallas. Lots to look forward to and much to prepare for in the next couple of days. I hope for safe travels and good times.