04/24/2024: Life’s Moments

I’m getting the bug again. And I’m so happy that my creativity is ramping up and things are coming together. After some obstacles with my motivation and some technical issues with getting things started, I feel driven and inspired again, and I can finally move forward with getting myself out there and sharing my work. 

I was really excited by this last night, and I smiled when I realized I can finally move to the next step on my writing journey. I’ve been writing at a faster pace again and I have been brainstorming more, and I just want to see how much I can accomplish with the rest of the time I have this year. 

I finally realized I don’t have to just stick to some goals I made, the same ones as last year. I should be surpassing those goals as I expand my experience and skills in my craft. I think having that realization freed me. I'm definitely a stickler for structure and routine, but I’ve also learned that there’s a balance to these things. 

No day is going to be the same. There is no magic number or formula that will constitute a good or bad day. It’s a constant fluctuation, and we have to rise to meet these ebbs and flows to the best of our abilities for any given day. Yes, some days definitely feel like throw-aways, but ever since I took the effort to try to think of at least one positive thing that came out of a day, every day feels positive or productive in some way, no matter how small the positive or productive thing. 

It helps me see my life as moments, and it helps me live in the now. We can only hope that the sum of these moments add up to a life well lived and time well spent once we reach our final moment. I have had infinite moments with the people in my life, so many laughs, cries and words I’ll never forget. I’ve gone through so much growth within myself, not without struggles and frustrations. I’ve breathed so many breaths, some easy, some difficult as I navigate my emotions and the challenges of life. But most importantly, I’ve lived a full life in the span of these little moments, and I have countless things to be happy about, even sad about. 

As I try to let go of the bad things and focus on the happy things, I do my best to keep moving forward, for the sake of my love, and for the sake of my dreams. And I move forward for the sake of my love’s dreams. I hope our relief comes soon, and that good things are ahead.