05/25/2024: Pine, CO Day 4

Everything I do requires my full focus. Whether I’m reading, writing, or entertaining I can’t be half present when I do it. I don’t see sitting doing what I love in blissful silence as boring. I live for that uninterrupted peace in nature that I know I desperately need to stay sane.

I’ve learned that I’m one of those people that wishes for all the uninterrupted time in the world to enjoy these moments of stillness. I know it used to be different, and it took me a long time to get to this point. I just wish more people could see what I see, could hear what I hear, and could feel what I feel. 

We are here to recharge and reconnect, but I’m also trying to make sure that I’m being a good host. In the midst of it all, I just want to exist. Sometimes it’s hard to fight for that peace and solitude that I desperately crave, because the world wants something different from me. I just have more creative interests and focus, and I thrive and get inspired away from the busy world, in the middle of nowhere better than anywhere else. Others just don’t have that. 

I just hope that everyone is having a good time. I know I’ve enjoyed myself so far. It always flies by too quickly for me, but I know these will be memories long cherished after we leave.