03/22/2025: My Life, Not Yours

I don’t want who I am to be up for debate. I try not to ask for much, but this is a big issue that I don’t want to budge on, not after I’ve worked so hard to build a life that I love despite the thoughts and opinions of others. 

The people that I allow into my world are a meager few, and there’s a reason for that. And I always hope that those meager few will respect my freedom to be me while they strive to be them. But that’s an ideal; some people feel so strongly about things that they’re blinded as a result, unaware of the fact that they don’t know everything, just like the rest of us don’t know everything. 

If someone is willing to die on a really trivial or specific hill, then they have to be prepared for someone else disagreeing with that, plain and simple. What ever happened to “agree to disagree?” Is that even allowed anymore?

I never want to presume that my beliefs are superior to anyone else’s, but if I feel strongly about something, then chances are I’m going to say something. If this leads to silent judgment and resentment then so be it; at least I got to say my piece, and it shouldn’t matter if I’m among like minded people that care. 

I get so tired of explaining myself to others who refuse to do the same. I’m at a point where I just want to be left alone in that regard, because I know the things that work for me and the ones that don’t. What may look strict, stubborn, or wrong to someone else is actually all the steps I’ve taken in the right direction for once, steps to fight for the life I want through a dedicated routine, commit to my physical and mental well being for the first time in my life, and to rid myself of habits that don’t serve me any longer.

I don’t typically question people about these things; I’m just trying to live my life. And I’ll continue to do this in the way that suits me, my goals and my dreams. I don’t want to feel like I’m constantly fighting to get my life back every time someone doesn’t understand me and why I’m the way I am. I’m just unapologetically me, same as the rest of the world, and sometimes we just have to acknowledge our differences and move on with our lives. 

There are those who are content to never expand their lives and world views beyond the realm of comfortable mediocrity, and though I wish that wasn’t the case, I have to accept that and not try to change people. I just wish people would stop trying to change me. I just want my thoughts and feelings to exist alongside everyone else’s.