08/16/2023: How Fleeting Life Is

This week took a pretty quick turn. It wasn’t off to the greatest start mentally; I’m not sure why. But something told me this week would be challenging in some way. And I was definitely right. Yesterday was a day filled with anxious waiting, just sitting around until things happened. It’s always scary to wait for a verdict about a loved one. But I’m here now and I’m feeling optimistic about things. Nana seems to be in great spirits, considering the circumstances, and I’m glad I could be here for her so she didn’t have to be alone during all this. 

I wish I could put my two favorite people in the world into a protective bubble so the world couldn’t touch them. Nana and Papa are getting older and I can’t be around as often as I used to be and that gets to me sometimes. I just want them to be careful and to be happy. 

It’s hard not to contemplate growing old and what’s after life when you’re spending full days in the hospital. So much life and death everywhere. I want to be as able bodied as I can for as long as I can, which is why I’m trying so hard now to get my mental health and physical health on track. I’ve done a decent job over the course of the last year, and I am proud. But I know I’ve still got a long way to go before I get to where I’m going. 

As far as my personal goals and dreams go, I feel confident that I’m on the right track with that, and I have a more clear view of what I want the rest of my year to look like. I am slowly making progress with editing and reworking old stories and creating new ones. I can’t wait to see what my current project looks like when I finish it at the end of this year. 

I think I’m edging closer and closer to, or warming up to the idea more, of getting my work out there for the world to see, on my own platform where people can come and see what I’ve been working on this year. I want to learn more about writing from my favorite authors and I want to see what other areas I can explore in the world of writing, like script writing, storyboarding, and even DM-ing as a fun side hobby. 

I’m interested in any avenue that promotes creativity, storytelling, and writing. I think my hobbies for the rest of 2023 are pretty well laid out, and I will roll with the punches on the rest as I crush my writing goals. I just want to have something to show for my efforts at year’s end, and I want to be able to get away from it all and celebrate and take a break from everything and prepare for another great year after this one, and so on and so forth until I accomplish all my goals. 

I’ve been reminded of just how fleeting life is this week, and I don’t want to waste a moment. Even on my bad days I want to be productive and fulfilled in some way. So I’ll keep getting up each day and doing what I need and want to do. It’ll pay off.